SplatteredPinks

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2011-12-29T07:50:00.004+08:00

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

-My little brother...nope. Don't think he meant it at all.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

-Er, I am.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

-Urm...when I realize the PLL is going to continue to show in just 5days?:D

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

- I do it all the time if the stranger and I made any eye contact.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

-Idts

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

-This rarely happens

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

-Mah pjs

8. How often do you listen to music?

-Not very often. Not listening to musics lately

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

-Jeans. IFUCKINGLOVEJEANSOKAYTHEYARELIKETHEBEST

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?

-Please...no dramas. Hopefully, it won't. Just a few more days left.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

-Antisocial...well...i think it depends on who i'm surrounded by. If i'm surrounded by a bunch of annoying assholes or people that i don't talk to then i would most likely be antisocial. But if i'm with my friends, then bein social it is.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

- Technically no. But he named himself Andy so....idk

13. What about ‘R’?

Noped.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

-What?

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

-hmm...if i know those niggas then yes, i do.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

-Soon as in cny eve? then yes.

17. When was the last time you cried?

-Honestly, i don't remember

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

-Mmmmhmmm

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

-Yes. I want them green.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

-I would do things for him but I have my limits.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having

-So far everything's fine. Considering it's 8am in the morning, nothing has happened yet.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

-I guess

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

-Wtf, if I were to date the last person I talked to then that'll be incest.

24. What are you sitting on right now?

-My bed

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

-Matt:3

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

-Oh idk, like Josh Hutcherson, Carter Jenkins, Charlie, MysteryGuitarMan, Heather Morris, Shay Mitchell and a lot of my other perfect babies? then yes. yes i have.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

-Lol, I haven't slept at all.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

-Yes. I am THE weakling.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

- idk, the tag says Nicole

30. Does anyone hate you?

-Nyeh, someone probably does

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

-Yes. But it's a small one and I use it to store my bangles.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

-OMGYESYESYES I DO AND I NEEEEEEEEED A HORROR MOVIE BUDDY BECAUSE ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS ARE FRIED CHICKENS.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

-Hmm.. I heard from someone that it doesn't hurts at all. So I might do it since there's no pain involved. Bu then again that some someone said that ear piercings doesn't hurt but when i got it it hurts like shit.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

-2010

35. Did you have a dream last night?

-Haven't slept since last afternoon

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

-Yesterday night

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

-Hell no I do not want to get married when I'm 21 that's too early

38. Do you think someone has feelings ou?

-Probably

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

-Lol, no

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

-It was decent.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

-Nuuu

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

-Yes. A bunch of girls, actually:B

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

-Yes. 2of them did. So may this be a lesson for me. Never love someone deeply because no matter how much they say they love you, sooner or later they'll give up trying to understand. and it'll suck. unless that person is the most understanding bitch there is and is very patient with you, then you go glen coco. kudos for you. but in the mean time, if you are like me(20years old below) dont take your relationships too seriously. dont say shit like "oh, im going to marry you hehehe and we'll have tons of kids and live happily ever after" because not every couple can last forever. I've seen love getting torn out from a person's heart, then got stomped on, then grilled and made into a kebab and then fed to Scar. Love does not magically last forever. It takes a lot of effort and time for it to build up. So if you are young and in a relationship, there's a 99% chance that your future husband will NOT be the same person you are dating now. So if a person breaks up with you, just let it go. Don't cry over the little fucker. Just breathe, and let it go. If it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be. Move on. Don't kill yourself for someone like that. His/Her love hormones might have already faded out over the past 3months when he was with you. But if the same little fucker broke up with you, and is bitching about you, then you bitch back. Don't let the fucker break up with you and ruin your life and self-esteem too. If you're going down, might as well take the fucker down with you, right? "The one" might come one day, then again he/she might not. If he/she doesn't, then you might want to invest in cats. I heard they make good companions.

44. What’s the best part about school?

-Besides friends...I might have to say the labs. I would have said the canteen if they haven't replaced the good food with healthy unsavory shit

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

-Yer

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

-Lol, we would pass doodles around.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

-I try not to

48. Were you single over the last summer?

-Yes

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

-Definitely no

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

-Idk, sleep i guess

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

-Sometimes he can be a spoiled little boy

52. Are you nice to everyone?

-Naturally

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

-No

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

-Well I did

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

-Mmmmhmmm

56. Do you think you like someone?

-Yes

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

-Nope

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

-Girls

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

-Yes

60. Do you hate anyone?

-Idts

61. How’s your heart?

-I think it's in good condition

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

-Maybe

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

-Once. For a while. I mean, he was my first, why wouldn't I cry? I was very young and naive back then.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

- Me mother

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

-Why yes, how on earth do you know

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

-Hope not

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

-The fuck. Unless you have a valid reason to, suck it up you wuss.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

-Nuuu. But my skirt flew open once lol thank God I was at a beach with only my relatives around.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

-I have no idea. My phone have been off for weeks

70. How do you look right now?

-Shitty

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

-Yes. Very thankful to have them in my life and may God bless their souls.

72. Can you commit to one person?

-I can if I try

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

-Yer

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

-Yes

75. Did you wake up cranky?

-If someone wakes me up

76. Are you a jealous person?

-If someone has something HP related and is extremely cool, then yes.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

-Psh, depends.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

-Meh brother

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

-Matt

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

-Clean my room for cny

81. Last person you cried in front of?

-Michelle. We were watching HPDHP2 okay. Very valid reason.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

-Mmmm...idk. Let's see if I'll remember them when they die

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

-.......Honestly, I have no idea

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

-Cuddles!

85. Are you over your past?

-Very

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

-Don't think I have

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

-Yer

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

-I will burn him along with my house.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

-I will burn him along with my village

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

-Yes. But she hates everyone I date so...nyeh

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

-Hope so

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

-OMG, YESSSSS!!

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

-*pokerface* I wish!

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

-I don't think so.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

-Nope.

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

-Nigga, I don't remember who was the last person I texted cause my phone has been off for weeks!

97. Who do you have texts from?

-The most? Bmobile. lol

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

-"Oh...okay..." *cookieliciouscandy has just signed out*

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

-Yer

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

-Michelle and LOLLLL KUMZY!

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

-Nope.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

-I guess

here we go

2011-12-24T20:23:00.006+08:00

So I'm gonna do another question thing. Sorry if they annoy the heck out of you but I think they're really fun:)

1. "I don't really care. If I like you, then I like you. As long as you don't have a snake in your pants and I meant that as in the literal term" - Charlie

2. Cooking

3. Matt:3

4. They all sucked cause it was too tensed and awkward.

5. Very low. Don't you motherfucking tell me I'm pretty just so that I'll feel better because it doesn't work that way with me. I know I'm not. I know myself. I see things about myself that you cannot see. Though I am working on it. Trying to make myself feel better.

6. Michelle, Kumzy, Hana, Teo, Janet, Manda and well...lost touch with a few.

7. Can't pick between HP or The Hunger Games or Darren Shan.

8. hmm...people who are unhygienic I guess.

9. Which one ._.

10. Either a dog, a cat, a panda, a polar bear, an owl, a fox, a wolf or an orang-utan.

11. Janet :(

12. It's either because I'm "not religious enough", "not hot enough" or "not romantic enough".

13. Picked my sister up from Limbang.

14. Surviving 16 years of life.

15. I have no idea. I get annoyed by a lot of people but I don't think I dislike them....that much...

16. Heather's Who Run the World cover, Naya's Santa Baby cover and Glee's Rumor has it/Someone like you cover. Ahh, Glee.

17. He just attacked me like a wold gorilla. LOLJK. It was pretty unexpected.

18. Abs

19. 5 turtles(they all died) and a lot of fishes that I absolutely do not give a fuck about because they don't do much.

20. Forever chocolate.

21. Canada.

22. It was something like "I'll find someone who's hotter"

23. Miri and Limbang. Moved to Brunei when I was about 2.

24. You invent a portal that leads me to a REAL Hogwarts. or Pigfarts. Pigfarts is good too.

25. Well, I want to be a dentist who earns a lot and when I have enough money, I'll buy my own observatory and study astronomy just for my own pleasure. I want to live in an apartment that's not too big with either one of my best friends or my boyfriend(it's better if I share it with both parties). I want to adopt a puppy and watch it grow up into a dog. Then I'll adopt another puppy so that my future big dog wouldn't get lonely about not having kids. I want to do something that will help third world countries like making wells that'll provide safe drinking water or a big donation of glasses to help them see:) Planning to do the glasses thing after I finish my O'levels. Oh, and I want to travel.

26. That I will never be good enough for everyone and that I'll never excel in life.

27. Opening gifts, skyping with Matt, tumblr, knit...that's all I guess. Oh, and make my own dream catcher :3

28. A dentist or an astronomist.

29. Tripping in public for, idk, a thousand time. I can be very clumsy.

30. I have like 9. And I don't feel like listing them out because it'll make everything worst.

31. Study astronomy, buy an apartment in a country that I would rather live in, buy a few things that I've been longing for and donate the rest to third world countries.

32. LOL, he has curly brown hair, is VERY tall, funny, white, has er...bad teeth(well, that's what he thinks), is a total geek, clever, has droopy eyes and ahhhhhh, idontthinkyouwanttoknowmoresoilljustshutupnow

33. Nothing

34. People who act cute for attention

35. None?

36. Refer to question #6

37. I want 2 at first. If I have the money to raise a few more and if giving birth doesn't hurts for me, then I'll have another 3 or 4.

38. Indoors. Good food. Good games. Good horror movies. Cold room. Blankets. Forts. A lot of cuddling. NO AWKWARDNESS.

39. Doodling?

40. Seeing my mom cry

41. Singapore or England or Canada or LA

42. "Well I think you're gorgeous" "Why do you have to be so cute" "Good morning, beautiful" -Matt *dies*

43. I learn to accept it.

44. My sister watching Mtv

45. I'm good with everyone but very close to my little brother and my sister(even though she can be a complete pain in the ass).

46. Refer to question #19.

47. That I might not get grades that'll guarantee me a scholarship and that I might not work hard an smart enough for my o'levels.

48. To be better

49. Good with dad. Beginning to understand mom.

50. A simple greeting from either one of the people I don't find annoying is more than enough to cheer me up.

51. "No, I do not want to be friends with you so fuck off"

52. lol, haven't checked my phone for weeks cause it ran out of battery and I'm too lazy to charge it.

53. everything

54. Can't pick between snake bite piercings + eyebrow piercings, if you can make me feel comfortable without being all creepy and stalking me and my friends like a little bitch, clever puns or if you're naturally a hilarious mofo.

55. ugly

56. The people, the uniforms, the lazy-ass teachers, the drama, the subjects that i simply cannot relate to and is completely useless for my future.

I really like him

2011-12-23T05:44:00.002+08:00

So there's this guy I like....he's smart, punny, witty, funny, geeky, real and just plain adorable. I feel comfortable talking to him, even from the beginning. We love the same books, we like animes, we like funny and punny shit, we like weird and funny quotes, we like unsuitable cartoons, we don't really give a shit about music anymore, we don't talk about other people...it's just about us. Ahhhh. I really think he's the one. The only problem is he lives a million miles away from here and is in a different time zone. We Skype every night. 1.30am my time and 9.30am his time. And I really appreciate all the effort he puts in just to skype with me. Ahhhh. wtf should I do now. Am I in love or is this just another "i like you but i'm not going to be into you in a few more months" thing?? Cause I don't really want to lose this feeling for him. I've liked him for about 2months now? wow, shit. I don't want to go all numb and feel nothing again like what happened to KY and Andy. Oh lord, please don't let this feeling go awayyy.

99 weird question

2011-12-23T04:42:00.003+08:00

Well, I haven't written anything here for a long time so I thought this might do. Copied from moi tumblr.

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
- Usually it's closed.

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
- If the bottles are pretty:B

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
- In

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
- Not a bad ass but a pussy

5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
-When it comes to sticking random, weird shit on people's back, YES.

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
- Don't really know where to find coupons here. But I would love to try

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
- I would rather be attacked by a cute, furry bear.

8: Do you have freckles?
- I'm Asian. Not Ginger.

9: Do you always smile for pictures?
- If I'm not a candid.

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
- People who ALWAYS act cute for attention.

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
- Only when I'm bored and nothing's on my mind to think about.

12: Have you ever peed in the woods?
-No

13: What about pooped in the woods?
- No, we do not want to anger the wood spirit now, do we?

14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
- No

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
- Ew, no

16: How many people have you slept with this week?
- I only sleep with my bubu *foreveralone*

17: What size is your bed?
-Single

18: What is your Song of the week?
-Santa Baby

19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
-I guess

20: Do you still watch cartoons?
- Yes, but somehow they annoy me a lot.

21: Whats your least favorite movie?
-Mrrors 2

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
- I wouldn't bury it. I'll buy things I want.

23: What do you drink with dinner?
-Soup?

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
- Nothing. I don't like ketchup and mayo.

25: What is your favorite food?
-........CRABSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
- She's the Man. Mean Girls. Paranormal Activity 3. Mulan 2. Tangled. The Little Mermaid 2. Stay Alive. How to Train Your Dragon. Scott Pilgrim vs The World. Inception. John Tucker Must Die. Step Up 3. HP and The Goblet of Fire, HP and the Deathly Hallows 1 & 2. Mission Impossible. Where Got Ghost.

27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
- My ex.

28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
-No

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
- Don't have the figure for it

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
- Never done it before but I will write to Matt.

31: Can you change the oil on a car?
- Hell no.

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
- Can't drive.

33: Ever ran out of gas?
- Can't drive

34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
- Tuna and Kaya.

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
- Bacon, omelet and hot dogs:)

36: What is your usual bedtime?
- 3.30am?

37: Are you lazy?
- Very

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
- Sadly, we don't celebrate Halloween here.

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
- A boar

40: How many languages can you speak?
- 4. English, Malay, Mandrin & Hokkien.

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
- When I was a kid, my dad let me subscribe to Art Attack magazines:3 AND I GOT A FREE SHIRT!!

42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
- Nyeh?

43: Are you stubborn?
- I'm stubborn when I want to be stubborn.

44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
- Letterman is a buzzkill.

45: Ever watch soap operas?
- On tv.

46: Are you afraid of heights?
- Don't think I am

47: Do you sing in the car?
- Lul, too awkward.

48: Do you sing in the shower?
- ALL THA TIME

49: Do you dance in the car?
- There's no space for my random acts.

50: Ever used a gun?
- Not a real one.

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
- Last week. To renew my passport.

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
- Yerrr but I'm okay with it if their numbers are good.

53: Is Christmas stressful?
- Don't really celebrate it here.

54: Ever eat a pierogi?
- Don't even know what that is.

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
- APPLE

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
- A doctor

57: Do you believe in ghosts?
- Well duh, why else would I be superstitious for?

58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
- Too many

59: Take a vitamin daily?
- I'm suppose to

60: Wear slippers?
- Yeap

61: Wear a bath robe?
- Nuuu

62: What do you wear to bed?
- My pjs

63: First concert?
- The Miri Jazz festival?

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
- Never been to any of them

65: Nike or Adidas?
- I don't really care

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
- Cheetos!! Especially Cheetos Jalapeno!!!!!!

67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
- Peanutssssss

68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
-Nope

69: Ever take dance lessons?
- Yup

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
- A baker perhaps

71: Can you curl your tongue?
- Yes

72: Ever won a spelling bee?
- Nope. I am horrible in spelling.

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
- Nuu

74: Own any record albums?
- Nooo. I download all my music

75: Own a record player?
- No

76: Regularly burn incense?
- No

77: Ever been in love?
- Yes

78: Who would you like to see in concert?
- There's too many to pick

79: What was the last concert you saw?
- The Miri Jazz Festival?

80: Hot tea or cold tea?
- cold

81: Tea or coffee?
-tea

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
- Sugar?

83: Can you swim well?
- Yeap

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
- No

85: Are you patient?
- Yes

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
- Band

87: Ever won a contest?
- No

88: Ever have plastic surgery?
- *cough* considering *cough*

89: Which are better black or green olives?
- EW. NEITHER

90: Can you knit or crochet?
-YESSSS!!!:D And I've just started two days ago

91: Best room for a fireplace?
- Living room

92: Do you want to get married?
- Of course

93: If married, how long have you been married?
-

94: Who was your HS crush?
- The guys in my school are...well...not my type?

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
- No. I just accept things

96: Do you have kids?
- Well I ain't on 16 and Pregnant

97: Do you want kids?
- Maybe

98: Whats your favorite color?
- It used to be pink. I love light blue, lilac, cotton candy/baby pink, light green, orange and teal now.

99: Do you miss anyone right now?
- Don't think so

100Truths

2011-10-23T03:55:00.003+08:00

Hello! Haven't post anything in a while now so I thought I'll redo this 100 Truths about me thing. Did one a year or two ago so you can go compare and contrast them.

100 Truths (About Me)

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage ? Water

2. last phone call ? Matt

3. last text message? Michelle

4. last song listened to ? Valerie - Amy Winehouse

5. last time you cried? A day ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice ? Yes. Fucking ridiculous. Take my advice and don't go back for a guy who called you names. It'll only get worst.

7. been cheated on ? Yes. DA FUQ. He cheated on me with at least 4other girls. But we were young and immature back then so we're okay now. And by okay I mean we don't hate each other but we never talk to each other too.

8. kissed someone & regretted it ? Y.E.S.

9. lost someone special? to death? Nope.

10. been depressed ? Yes. Currently working on it right now and eliminating negative people around me.

11. been drunk and threw up ? Nope

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12. Pink(a pastel kind of pink)

13. Teal

14. Light Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

15. Made a new friend ? Yeap. There're really nice

16. Fallen out of love ? Yes. I simply don't want to give a fuck anymore.

17. Laughed until you cried ? YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

18. Met someone who changed you ? No one’s changed me, just taught me to better myself.

19. Found out who your true friends were ? I think my current friends are my true friends

20. Found out someone was talking about you ? No. But it could happen anytime.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list ? Nuuuu

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life ? Most of them. Maybe 80%? But I only like 9% of them so, nyeh.

23. How many kids do you want to have ? two or three

24. Do you have any pets ? Not anymore. The turtles died:(

25. Do you want to change your name ? Nah, I like my name:3

26. What did you do for your last birthday? Nothing special. Celebrated at home with my friends.

27. What time did you wake up today ? It's currently 4.10am and I haven't slept so maybe I'll wake up at 12pm?

28. What were you doing at midnight last night ? Watched a horror movie

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for ? My sweet sixteen birthday fuse with Hana!:D

30. Last time you saw your Father ? A few hours ago?

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? The way I think about myself.

32. What are you listening to right now ? Nothing

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? Nope. Even if I had I'm sure that I wasn't even aware of it.

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now ? My parents.

35. Most visited webpage ? Google Images

36. Whats your real name ? Ho Ying Ying.

37. Nicknames ? Um, my family calls me Mei?

38. Relationship Status ? Single but I think I like this guy so.....yeah....

39. Zodiac sign ? Sagittarius

40. Male or female? Female

41. Elementary? It was fun. Had it way too easy back then

42. Middle School ? It was alright. Was THE quiet one.

43. High school/College ? Getting annoyed with two shitty teachers and most of my shitty classmates but that's probably because I don't know them very well. Other than that, I think it's ok. Though I wish I wouldn't have to wake up at 6am.

44. Hair colour ? Black

45. Long or short ? Long??

46. Height ? 5"4.

47. Do you have a crush on someone? Did I not mention this just now? Well, I think I do

48: What do you like about yourself? Whenever anyone asks me this, I would say my height but to be honest, I hate everything about myself and like absolutely nothing.

49. Piercings ? None at the moment but I do want ear piercings. And maybe a piercing at the tail of my right eyebrow. And a navel piercing when I'm older.

50. Tattoos ? None. But I want a Felix Felicis tattooed on my feet and the word "breathe" tattooed on one of my wrist Might want more.

51. Righty or lefty? Righty.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery ? None yet

53. First piercing ? None yet

54. First best friend ? Muizzah Harun. Lost touch:(

55. First sport you joined ? Swimming? If it's school related then it's track and field.

56. First vacation ? KL?

58. First pair of trainers ? idek

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating – nothing

60. Drinking – milo

61. I’m about to – move onto the next question

62. Listening to- nothing

63. Waiting on – a person to come back from this place so that person can go online on skype and i can rant about shitty things to that person without that person judging me:)

FUTURE:

64. Want kids? – I'm not sure.

65. Get Married? – YES

66. Career? – Might consider being a dentist or an astronomist

WHICH IS BETTER?

67. Lips or eyes ? eyes

68. Hugs or kisses ? hugs:3 specifically cuddles

69. Shorter or taller? Well I would like to grow a bit taller. Maybe about 6cm taller?

70. Older or Younger? 5years older. By then I would probably have a stable job and I will be able to drive and I can get the hell out of this place.

71. Romantic or spontaneous ? Spontaneous. I can't handle romance.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms ? ABSSSSSS

73. Sensitive or loud? sensitive. so we can both cry about things together. luljk

74. Hook-up or relationship ? Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant? Hesistant

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger? – no

77. Liked hard liquor? – :>

78. Lost glasses/contacts? – yes. in a theme park. fml

79. Sex on first date? – still a unicorn

80. Broken someone’s heart ? sorry, but yes

81. Had your own heart broken ? again, sorry, but yes.

82. Been arrested? no

83. Turned someone down ? yes

84. Cried when someone died ? yes

85. Fallen for a friend? – no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself ? sometimes

87. Miracles? yes

88. Love at first sight? sorry, but Personality>Looks

89. Heaven ? yes

90. Santa Claus? used to

91. Kiss on the first date? no. talk about awkward.

92. Angels? kinda

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? no

96. Ever cheated on somebody? maybe i have somewhat indirectly cheated on someone before

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? before i met this guy who brought me down and bring him down instead

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? I don't want to relive last year. please dont make me. it was horrible.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? yes. idkw but its kinda scary in its own little way

100. Posting this as 100 truths? – why not

New Love

2011-09-09T03:25:00.003+08:00

So, I haven't been listening to songs that much lately. Maybe it's because there's none in particular that really attracts me(besides the popular ones). But hey, this song by Porcelain Black is really good:D

This is what Rock N Roll Looks Like

LOVE THE VOICE! And she kinda reminds me of Cruella Deville. If you want, you can check out one of her other song called "My leftovers". It's really nice as well:D

Help

2011-09-09T02:55:00.004+08:00

Help is something we all need either its physically or mentally.

So I've been trying to help a couple of people with their problems and stuff. I really really hope they don't think I'm a busybody or something if I keep on asking "so how's ...?". Seriously, I help you cause I care and not because I wanna get dirt on you okay, so don't worry, all is fine. Plus, I know what it feels like to be helpless. To have no one listening to you at all. And not have the courage to tell someone your problems until someone asks "hey,what's bothering you?".

I've never really told anyone my problems cause no one ever asked me. And I would kinda compare our problems and let me tell you this, my problems always seems so small and unimportant compared to theirs. But in reality, it's huge. I've only managed to told one person about like, 1/4 of my problems? And it's because I broke down during a prayer and the next day I broke down again and the person asked why I was crying and whats bothering me. I have never felt so...i guess you can say, light? But still, I broke down more after I told her so I stopped at the first problem. Which, by now has probably already died out so, yay.

So help. The first fucking thing you HAVE to do when trying to mentally help someone is LISTEN. LISTEN. Shut your mouth up and listen. It's never really that hard to listen to others. Personally, I think I'm more of a listener than a talker. I've listen to a lot of people talk shit about shit that doesn't even matters, important stuff and blahhhhh. Then the second thing to do is THINK. Seriously think. Process the whole thing in your brain first before you start barking out suggestions which you aren't even sure of. And if you don't know what to do, tell them. Be HONEST and add a little "but I'm here if you need me:)". And ALWAYS be there for them. ALWAYS. Once in a while you have to ask about their problem. It's no big deal. Things that I'm doing to help people out are things I actually want people to do for me. But they never did. So I resorted to ranting with secret codes and stuff and well, blogging about it and then deleting it whenever I feel uncomfortable about people reading it. And to seek help, you have to get all your shit together and be ready. You have to be ready to open up to people and knowing that they'll judge you in every way they can. But you have to be okay with the judging and the talking behind your back. There is always a talking behind your back thing after you open up. Which is kinda why I'm not entirely ready to open up even if its with people I'm close with. But if you are okay with it then go ahead. Take the big leap in your life and get everything off your chest.

Even with all the help from people, you still have to help yourself in anyway you can. Feel better about yourself(it kinda helped me a little). Don't do anything stupid. If you already have, then don't do anything more stupid than what you've already done. People do care about you. Honestly, I'm just helping people(mostly by listening. I'm horrible at cheering people up) because I don't want to lose them. I don't wanna lose any of you. I'm trying to help myself as well cause I don't wanna hate myself more than I already have. I still have a looooooooooooooooooooooong way to go.

Hello

2011-08-29T17:13:00.004+08:00

Okay, so I haven't been blogging for months and I kinda feel bad for neglecting my blog. Since I've been gone for soo long, there's probably no one reading my blog right now. Which is kinda good cause I've been thinking of ranting a lot these days. I've already saved some rants here so yeah..

So today, at about, idk, 5.06pm? yeah, probably it. Xiaxue retweeted me!!!:D

proof!

If you don't know who Xiaxue is, you can go die now or visit her blog. She's a Singaporean blogger btw. And I just LOVE her! She's very honest with stuff, has a very cool job that I wish I can have in the near future and er, she's just awesome! Love her blog to bits:3 Okay, now that she dyed her hair pink I would probably love her more. ahhh.

Oh and btw, if you're wondering what's the picture about, it's this

I originally wanted to Google "how old is Charlieissocoollike" and before I could type "charlieissoocoollike", Google began to suggest things based on how much they were Googled before. So yeah, "how old is Xiaxue" is Googled more than Lady Gaga, Rebecca Black, Justin Bieber, Cody Simpson and yes, the earth itself:D

And it's super awesome because this is the first time that any celebrity(I guess you can say Xiaxue is a celebrity) retweeted me.

Okay, onto holidays. Well, I have nothing to do this holiday except finishing off dozens of homework. My results are shit. I have to do better next term(which never really happens). I took a friend's advice and made a timetable to organise myself and which I will start to follow when school re-opens.

Went out with my girls a few days ago. Had a seriously great time shopping, eating etc etc. We NEED to do this more often cause one of us is leaving this year:( Gonna go to JP soon but we've no idea when cause Janet wants to go with a big group of people(which I strongly disagree!) after the fasting month. PSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Oh, and just incase anyone who's still reading all this crap forgot how I look like,

A very crappy picture to remember me by

WHY SO CUTE

2011-06-09T03:48:00.002+08:00

OMGASDFGHJKKL;'WTFOMGOMGOMG!!!!1

WHY SO CUTE?!?!?!?! LOVE THIS KID!!!

HELLO

2011-06-06T16:02:00.004+08:00

HELLO

I've been MIA for a long time already and surprisingly i still get hits on my blog. Like, about 3-4 hits per dayXD Major drop. Oh well, no one can keep up with my tumblr anyway.

I wanted to stop blogging but somehow I just can't abandon my blog. Seems so cruel to abandon something so pretty:p

Well, the holidays just started and I'm not exited about anything at all. All I wanna do this holiday is read read read. Especially Hunger Games, Private novel, Pretty Little Liars and err....other books people have been recommending me. Then I'll probably leave my homework until the very last minute and panic and regret not doing them earlier. Same old procedure. Oh, and I wanna get Sims3 for my pc:( Borrowed Michelle's but it doesn't work-.- And I my psp is fixed!!!:D I have Toy Story 3 on my psp:DD Freaking love it.

omg, I look so dead

I got my contacts btw! Thank you Teo and Janet for being my contact lens guru hahahaha! Love my girls.

Ugh, I hate this year because it's like everyone is leaving:( Janet will be leaving:'( Jennifer will be leaving:'( Po might be leaving:'( Okay, maybe not everyone but still, people will leave sooner or later. Leaving me all alone and sad here. LOLJK I'm gonna be leaving too. Either next year or the next three years. Distance will kill us all.

okay, just realized that my face is so unsymmetrical. And I wanna lose some fats on my cheeks._. mehhehehehe love the contacts.

Oh, guess I'll just fool around with dad's camera this holiday, being an amateur photographer, like always. And stay 24/7 on tumblr. And download movies and series and the usual crap I do. And continue with some of my personal art project which I will never hang because I might be moving*cough*. Oh, and maybe buy thousands of cream puffs and cheese cakes and feast on peanut butter, tuna and nutella alone:3 And other food also lah.

I'm in love with flikr too!! But I love tumblr the most.

The world is freaking me out

2011-04-14T14:45:00.003+08:00

Saw this really weird video on youtube that one of my friends recommended me to watch, on the condition that I won't freak out. But I did. I am terrified of the world. Anyways, after watching that weird video, I thought it was all a bluff. I even read a post about it before on some website. So I began Googling them. And well, they do exist. No, it's not ghosts, ghouls, aliens or anything like that. God, I only thought these things only happens in movies and stuff. But now that you think of it, it does kinda makes sense. Bah bah, stop.

Love my earphones:D Wanted to get one in pink but the stall ran out of stock:( Bought it during my school trip to Sg btw. And the background is my file cover:D Made it myself:D Well, not the patterns, just the cover?? HAHAHAHA! Blog about it next time.

Current favourite necklace:D From Diva.

With flash. Actually, I wanted to buy the elephant one but the pendant was too small:(

Current favourite ring:D Slytherin! Or as I would like to call it, SLYTHERING!!! Get it? Get it?;)

#2 favourite? LOL. It's a connector ring btw!

The back.

I'm a misguided soul. I'm losing my way in everything. I can think straight. I'm beginning to question. I'm beginning to deny. I'm...soo sorry...

addiction

2011-04-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

Currently addicted to these songs

Marry You by Bruno Mars

Lets Be Friends by Emily Osment(love her!)

You Are The Only One by Emily Osment. She somehow reminds me of Kelly Clarkson...

BTW by Lady Gaga:D How can you hate her?? It's just impossible:3

I Just Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble

Animal by Neon Trees:D

1983 by Neon Trees! I wanna live in the 80's! Things seems better back then, even though I wasn't born yet:/

MF

2011-04-10T21:27:00.004+08:00

Omfg I really hate you right now. Seriously. I hope you'll read this, get offended and gtfo of everywhere. When we had the first problem, you insulted me like shit. And I just sat there and took it like a woman. I didn't insult you back or anything. I just hated you for a short period of time.

Now, let me tell you why I didn't. Because I pity you. I knew you were a fake since we got to know each other more. You're soo pretentious. Two-faced prick. You think you're that awesome huh? Well you're not. You won't believe the amount of people who hates/hated you. Yeah, you're annoying. Should have been honest with you at the first place and told you that. Why are you annoying? Idk, maybe it's because you stalk people for their friend's number and other shit and keep on referring to yourself as awesome without making it a joke. You're not awesome. If you are, people will tell you that and you'll stop calling yourself awesome cause you already know you are, thus if you keep on referring yourself as awesome, you KNOW that you're not. Loser. Stop thinking that you're better than everybody. Plus you try too hard. And maybe it's just me. I HATE people who tries soo hard to befriend me even if I give them hints that I don't want to. It's like, they just LOVE to suck all the good vibe out of you by sucking up to you and shit. You should have stop trying and gtfo after you knew that I lied to you about you being annoying. Because I do not have the heart to tell you that you are. Cause I pity you.

Back to the part where you insulted me. You called me a 'skinny bitch' for no reason. Yeah, your so-called friend told me that you did and also showed me the wall you wrote to someone else. But excuse me, I didn't even insulted you when you insulted me and dropped tons of stupid shit on me. So lets see, you were the bitch, the fat bitch. Not me. You lowered my already-low-self-esteem. I have never felt so bad about myself before. Yes, I know I don't have a hot, curvy figure...like the ones you picture in your perverted mind. Pfft, and you said I ruined your life just because you made the move and couldn't control yourself from eating? You literally blamed me cause you gained weight. Please, you were just trying to find a stupid excuse for breaking your diet plans. And fyi, an emotional pain caused by a person can only last for about 12minutes. The emotional pain you feel after those 12minutes is self caused. It's was scientifically proven. SUCK ON THAT. Then when you wanted everything to go back again, you apologize. Shit man. You'll only do something when you want something important. Stupid. If you insult someone very badly and hate that person, don't fucking apologize lah. Unless that person is dying, then go ahead. As usual, I felt sorry for you and I admit, I still had a thing for you so apology accepted. Man, I was stupid.

Then you kept telling me all these crap about your friends. Hello, I don't give a fuck about your friends who I don't even know okay?? Wtf was that for anyways? To make me feel worst? To make me feel like I'm not worthy? Please. The ground you walk on isn't even worthy for a poor person to beg on. And then you told me all these crap about this friend who's like a sister to you. Please lah, it's soo obvious that you like her. No need to pretend that you don't. Oh, and you didn't stop there. You HAD to bring religion in. IF YOU KNEW THAT I WASN'T A CHRISTIAN IN THE FIRST PLACE, WHY EVEN BOTHER?? And if you're that religious, why did you lied/gossip/swear/made a stupid promise you can't even keep/hate and all the other sins you did?? Hypocrite!! You're soo pathetic man. Really. You're the noobiest noob I've ever met.

And when I 'scold' you, you can't take it like a man meh?? Must you be such a wimp to act innocent? Ass man. After you insulted me like shit(which is similar to scolding me but with more insults), you can't insult back after that??? SAI. Instead of scolding me back, you complain about how I scold you-.- WIMP! I didn't even complain when you insulted me! And the way you 'scold' me was worst!

If I compare all the scoldings you and I did, mine would be finish in one or two paragraphs while yours will end at like, five or six. And I am NOT exaggerating. Your insults were THAT bad and long. And also poklen. You won't believe this but when you insulted me via texts(you also insulted me via facebook) at the first problem, I couldn't help but to laugh. Seriously those 'you ripped my heart into pieces/my heart is broken into pieces' shit you constantly sent were a bunch of bullshit. I know, it's just an expression. But they're soo old. Shit, at least come up of something better than googling for poklen heart-pain quotes-.- And you told me that life isn't a fairy tale?? Please, I KNOW. Maybe it's you who should get back to reality. Your heart can't break into pieces in real life okay. Get real. And you were like 'you think saying all this will get everything back to normal' when you yourself said sorry after insulting me via text. Bitch man. Think of yourself before insulting others. Point a finger at someone, four will point back at you.

And nowwwwwww?? You said we can be friends after the second problem. Shit lah. If we are friends, you wouldn't add a '(bitch)' after mine or my sisters' name on your contact list. Yes, your siblings are great spies! Seriously, don't you think that's kind of err....immature? But you already know that you're immature so maybe that's totally you. You must hate us or something. U mad kah?? beh song is it??:p BAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!! If you hate us, delete us from your contact list. DUH. Still have our numbers for what?? Want to chitchat huh?;) And if you really did add a '(bitch)' to my sisters' name, WHY??? Wtf did she do to upset you? Don't drag people into this man. Be a man and stop doing what girls would usually do. Unless you're gay.

And what is it with you and looks? I know, you had a dramatic breakdown when you were younger but then you should only tell yourself that you're ugly/really hot. Why tell other people that they're ugly? You think the guys I like are ugly? Wow, your childhood that bad meh? If you were happier, you wouldn't care cause looks aren't everything. They're something but they're not the whole package. You seriously think you're hotter than Daniel Radcliffe?? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! Nooo, you're not. You're nothing compared to the chosen one:D

See, you are just like the people you talked about. Your friends/siblings/people you hate. You're just like them. So if you hate them cause they have this imperfection that you hate, and you have them too, doesn't that means that you hate yourself??:D Think about it.

hello, again

2011-03-29T20:09:00.003+08:00

Well hello there. D'you know that I painted an owl with the exact same expression I have here? And I stuck it somewhere on the wall near my closet(because it's too big) and now every time I change, it's always staring at me? Yeah, none of you know that because I just did it last week.

I don't know what the heck is wrong with me lately. I'm like, really really interested in make-up and all those girl crap now.

I got influenced by Neddy, my sister, my cousins and um, Miley Cyrus? LOLJK.

And yes, I'm wearing eyeliner in these pictures. And BB cream that I bought with Neddy:p

Problem? Good. Me gusta.

Eyeliner and face cream is probably the only make-up I know how to apply. I'm not even sure if I'm applying my eyeliner right! Oh well, I'll force Neddy to teach me!>:D AgainXD

Oh, I know my hair is soo crappy and stupid looking. It's cause I've been using a headband for like, 2days just to keep my dirty bangs off my face cause I haven't wash my hair in, 3days?

What? I just don't like washing my hair when it's my time of the month. I just don't.

Oh!! Y'know that 'stats' thing on your dash that you use to check well, your stats and everything right?? Yeah. I checked mine for the week just now and I have 6 traffic sources from this image search 'sg sluts'. It was my picture-.- ASDFGHJKL;'.

I like the feeling when you whip your hair back and forth:3 It's super nice:D And windy. I actually felt bald once.

And yes, I am breaking out._. Fucking periods.

Planning to buy 16mm contact lenses in black! But I can't choose which brand! There's this pretty pair in black I saw online just now(I think it was called hyper black? idk) and when I Googled the brand...it's a bad brand. They're made in China and you're suppose to dispose them after you worn them ONCE ONLY but the importer/supplier(being greedy and shit) lied and told people that you can use them for a maximum of 6months-.- And they lied about them being imported from Korea somemore. Thank God I Googled the brand! I actually thought of ordering them cause they look soo...good:p

I know, I know, 'what happened to your parents not allowing you to wear contacts?'. Well, they won't know about this:D Yes, I'm buying them behind their backs. Seriously, you won't believe how much they've told me about contacts. And most of them aren't even true one! Ugh.

I'll do a post about my school's SG trip once I pass up my report. Just in caseX)

I can't believe it, it's been years and I'm still somehow attracted to you*facepalm*.

how's life

2011-03-19T01:20:00.004+08:00

Finally, it's the first term holiday:D Soo....I'll probably be blogging more cause I have nothing to do at all. I'm trying to keep myself busy by doing some stuff. Stuff like rock climbing, drama class, drum lessons, going back to jogging etc. But I'm not sure about it all yet. Well, the rock climbing and jogging part is a yes. Not sure about the drama class thing cause I've no idea where it'll be taking place. But it'll be on April and I haven't told my parents. They'll probably think it's all useless. I also haven't found a 'good' music school that dad likes. He keeps comparing here and there.

The Singapore trip was AWESOME:D

One awesome photo 0:)(credits to Fiqah*shivers*)

Made new friends(which is kinda cool cause I'm not one of those people who can befriend someone easily) and had a great time. The only thing I have to do now is the report and the 2nd presentation. The 1st presentation sucked. I wanted the floor to swallow me up. But oh well, what's done is done. I hope none of you(whoever you are) expects me to blog about the Sg trip. I'm too lazy. HAHAHAHAHAH. But maybe I will if I get bored this holiday.

Dad bought a semi-pro camera last month. Olympus pen EPL2!

I can't touch it at first. Dad has this weird ocd(if you can even call this an ocd) of not letting anyone touch something new of his. But I finally got my hands on it after a few days:D

Oh, I hab nu bf. lul. porebah alunT_T ok, not really poreebah alun. Vatebarr. Don't feel like blogging nao-.- Pac yuh bichezz. LULJK.

Dad's dragging me back into sports this holiday. Hello hills and tracks, I'm coming for ya. Omg, this is all terrible! I don't like getting sweaty okay!D': But I'm willing to make an effort by myself so he'll stop dragging me to almost every sport event he knows about. Which is kinda why I'm jogging again. HAHAHAHAHHAHAAA!

short post

2011-03-01T21:54:00.003+08:00

I've been neglecting my blog for a while now. Probably because I've been pretty busy(I mean lazy). And it's also because I may have leave my blog for my tumblr. Plus I'm currently having this monthly test and I'm busy preparing for this Singapore exchange student program thing that's like, two days after my monthly test. Which is on the 7th!! So I'll be gone from the 7th till the 11th. I won't have to go to school plus the first term holiday is near!!!! I can finally go out with people without my parents complaining about my O'level being so near and comparing my result and shit-.-

So, I'll try to blog at least twice a week. About I don't know what, but I'll try.

Oh! My dad brought a semi-pro cameraD: It's an Olympuc EPL2. I LOVE the pop-art effect but I tend to look more yellow in it-.-

Well I think that's it. I have my Chemistry test tomorrow. Oh how I love Chemistry.

pictures of you, pictures of me

2011-01-11T17:44:00.006+08:00

Oh hey

So I'm really really bored right now. Guess I'll just picture blog(wtf)?

#1. I'm really offended that he asked me that. It's like he sees me as this slut who sleeps with every guy I know-.- How am I suppose to know why people do it before marriage? I will surely never do that kay

#2. Joined photography today! And the whole reason why is because of Elle and WanLing

I don't know why, but I don't really feel like joining anything this year. But it's compulsory so yeah

I was interested in Science & Technology last year but it all seems soo dull now. Idk why

#3. Holyshit I look like someone from Facebook here o.o AWESOME!

Maybe if I'm that bored I'll go around Brunei pretending to be her! HAHAHAHA, JK!

#4. I wanna dye my hair!!

But I don't think my parents will let me:(

#5. Yes, every girl who wears a sleeveless is a slut-.- Come on people, it's normal.

Lucky that I don't go around Brunei like this. Otherwise people might go 'oh damn, that slut'. paq yuh beescheezz

Omg, I finished both my Physics homework and my AddMath classwork(we were suppose to continue at home)in only 20 minutes!! Only skipped 1 question:D Damn proud:3

Beaching

2011-01-08T23:48:00.004+08:00

Went to this beach in Serasa(sp?) about a few weeks ago with my family cause at that time we were bringing my cousin around Brunei. There were about two stalls selling these lizard thing.

Look at that poor bug in there. About to get eaten.

Oh, and they eat this

Doesn't it reminds you of Pascal???:D

Then we went to this seafood restaurant near the beach to have tea. LOL. Tea at a seafood restaurantXD

They have loads of cool decoration there! Might consider living in a beach house when I grow up:3

The owner saw me took a picture of this and told me it was hand-painted by her cousin in Indonesia.(and I was like 'holycrap do i know you'.LOL)

The cousin soo damn pro!

And they have these lanterns that I've always wantedT_T

Can I have one in pink?

They have another one in yellow but the picture I took turned out blurry

They have this vintage looking radio thing and I thought it was real. Then the song We R Who We R by Ke$ha came on. HAHHAHAHA!

Soo cool!

I know. I look weird.

LAND!

Then Mr.Softy came! Somehow the vanilla flavored ice-cream made me have this urge to puke.

Ahhh, now I remember why I hated school

You don't have to believe me, but the way I see it

2011-01-07T20:38:00.004+08:00

Just a few days of 2011 passed and I can feel that it's gonna be an awesome year! A lot of great things happened!

1. My mum actually supports me being with KY!:D But she doesn't know that we're together. LOL.

2. Most of my teachers are awesome:D Except for maybe...1-2?

3. I'm gonna have my first ever solo trip to Singapore on March!!

4. Going for drumming lessons!

5. Getting braces(or maybe next year. currently waiting for the rest of my milk teeth to fall off and I do not want to get them extracted at the dentist. Did it twice before. The first one was okay. The dentist just inject into my jaw and pulled 3 of my tooth out. The second one was fuckshit horrible. Went to a hospital for that one and the nurses applied some liquid thing onto both of my upper canine and imidiately yanked it out! You can actually feel it! Never had the guts to go back there again)!

6. 2nd of April! hehehehehe

7. I got loads of cool shades:3(and I wear 'em around, like I'm cooler than you. LOL!)

8. I got spoiled a lot on new year's eve by my parents.

9. I won't have to worry about this creepy teacher who stares at "us" anymore:D

All IS well:)

I feel like there's a pattern in this "good year bad year" thing. I had a good year in 2007. 2008 sucked cause I had to go to a new school and face people idk AGAIN. 2009 was awesome. 2010 was a bitch cause I lost a few friends. And this year is like, already good. So next year is gonna be a bad year for me~~cause everyone dies in the end~~:( Wow, that's creepy. Or it's just me.

So to those having a bad start of 2011, go watch some funny vids or something to cheer yourself up.

Like this:p Michelle told me about this the other day and now I can't stop watching it:O She iz lik mai faborate youtuberrr now!!

or this

Lighten up!

Doodle

2011-01-06T23:43:00.004+08:00

Thought I'd share a few of my ~~artwork~~ doodles from last year before I rub/throw them out:( These are only a few of them cause I've thrown most of them alreadyT_T

Kay these's are the ones I found in my physics notes(cause I can't help but to feel bored every time the teacher talks. cause her voice wahhT_T it's too low).

It's suppose to be Reptar. Y'know, the one from Rugrats?

Okay, this isn't a doodle but it was in my physics file(speaking of files, I have to use a lot of them this year. FML). It would be perfect if I remembered to draw on the zero level thingy:( I have the memory of a goldfish wtf.

This was the era of "Y U NO GUY":D

Not a doodle too but nyeh, this is the only sticker I've ever gotten in physics. HAHAHAHA, so sad. I think this was given by my tp teacher for physics.

Definitely not one of my best

The time when I was obsess with hippie bands(wore them all the time at home but never got the guts to wear them in public).

When I was obsessed with mustaches

Again with the mustache

Pluto! I drew Mickey on one of my MIB notes. Drew a Minnie somewhere and lost the paper:(

Rollie Pollie Ollie!

Was trying to doodle Mr.Tall from Darren Shan but then I lost the image of him in my head

The alien thing from Chicken Little

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I think Elle drew this. Inside joke. Unless you've also seen something similar

Mickey

Boom Boom Boom, even brighter than the moon, moon, moon(LOL). My chem teacher was busy with something that day and told us to do our own work. So...yeah. Miss her

Everyone said it looks like an onion

Square Pikachu!

Twilight. LOLOLOL

It was on tumblr too. Yes I misspelled Sirius Black

I was in pain that day. fml I have this special pain every monthT_T

Elle wrote that speech bubble thing. HAHAHAH!

Elle drew this one too!

Oh yeah, I haven't gotten my portrait of Daniel Radcliffe back from my CCA art teacher from last year:( It really looked like him!:O

I know it's too soon to say this but so far 2011 is awesome!:D

New Year's resolution

2010-12-31T17:23:00.005+08:00

Happy New Year's Eve everyone!!

So, this is probably the time of the year to see weather I've successfully achieved my new year's resolution. Even though I forgot most of what I written down.

1)Stay away from drama

-FAIL. Drama has its own way of finding me-.-

2)Improve my Chinese/Malay

-PASS!! Well, for my Chinese anyway. I now know the Chinese character for 1,2,3,4 and 5! Oh! and also 'big(da)' and 'heart(xing)'! I know it sounds like nothing for those who are seriously pro in Chinese, but for me, that's a major improvement:p And my pinyin got better! As for my Malay, it's still the same:\

3)Not to be soo nice to people

-FAIL. Still nice to people. All the freakin' time-.-(maybe not)

4)Study more

-FAIL. Always. I'm just too lazy to study for no reason. I mean why would I study if there's no test/exam??

5)Stop being lazy

-HAHAHHAA. FAIL.

6)Gain at least 5kg-8kg

-FAIL. I think I've only gain about 3kg-4kg?

7)Learn to trust certain people only

-PASS

8)Don't be too crazy about pink

-err, guess this is a pass? I mean, my blog isn't fully pink anymore and I've stop buying pink clothes(most of the time).

9)Spend less time on the computer

-PASS. Now I don't go online that much anymore and I'm not on Facebook 24/7 now:D Brain saved!

10)Talk more

-HAHAHA. PASS! in school laaa. I now have a friends who speak English soo...yeah. Talking moreB)

11)Blog less about stupid random stuff

-PASS. Who's the bimbo now? WAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Okay, now for my 2011 New Year's Resolution.

1)Concentrate more in class

2)Talk even more

3)Stay away from drama and have a more peaceful life(wtf, soo zen)

4)Be less nicer(don't take it the wrong way, it's not like I wanna be a complete bitch or something. I just need to say no and stand up for myself once in a while)

5)Gain weight

6)Be a good girlfriend

7)Be more religious

8)Stay connected with friends

9)Self improvement(get taller, be less insecure, get longer hair etc etc)

10)Blog more(realize that I haven't been blogging a lot lately)

And my New Year's wish would be to complete my New Year's Resolution:DD

So what are you guys doing this New Year's Eve? I'm gonna spend mine with this special someone at a special place*wiggles eyebrow*. HAHAHAH. JKJK. I'm gonna go out to Empire with my parents. See ya.

[EDIT] ohoh!! if you shower around 9pm-11.58pm(31st December 2010) and wait until it's 12am(1st January 2011), you can say that the last time you took a shower was last year!! HAHAHA! People are soo smart![/EDIT]

Goodbye 2010, you were a bitch.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2010-12-25T00:17:00.003+08:00

(okay, excuse me if I look stupid/crappy cause I took the whole thing at 11pm+)(and yes, I know my shirt is soo childish. but it's pink. hehehehehe:B)

And also excuse those black tape sticking onto my wall. It's been there for a while now. It was stuck to the back of my 2009 calender(which I didn't bother to tear off until now). I'm never using those tape again. Hard to peel off.

I was holding my camera with my right hand and a hand mirror in the other while doing this so I could take a full picture of my bloody Santa hat. Thus the weird face.

Bought the Santa hat in the Imperial(sp?) Mall in Miri. Top floor. If you see this really club-ish looking store, that's it. They have like, 3-4 stores there!(bought my Lagy Gaga glasses there too! But from the one which is err... second left from the food court?) But they rip you off. I saw the exact same hat in Parkson after that and it only cost RM6?? I bought it for freakin RM10 :O Okay, maybe I saw a RM8 one too but I thought the price varies with the size of the springy thingy on the hat. It did look bigger! FMLFORBUYINGUSELESSJUNK.

(EDIT) I found the store's plastic bag soo I've also found it's name? HAHAHAHA. It's called WORLDWIDE. And even if they do rip you off, they sell pretty stuffs there!:D I mean cool. Not pretty. Otherwise you might think that they sell pretty princess and girly stuff. LOL(/EDIT)

I wanna post this really nice Christmas quote by Owl City. It was posted by someone on Facebook earlier(I forgot who) and now I couldn't find it cause everyone on Facebook is like "merry Christmas everybody", "happy **th birthday!", "*insert long meaningful Christmas quote here*", "*insert Christmas wish here*", "*insert Christmas plan here*" and "insert anything that has to do with love here*". So that specific quote is buried... DEEP.

Don't you just hate it when someone you never thought of suddenly got you a Christmas present and all you can do is stand there like a moronic idiot grinning and telling them that you didn't get them anything and promise them that you will the next time you see them cause you don't want them to think that you're some spoiled brat/a bamf who thinks everything is yours/a selfish jerk/ a bitch who thinks everyone goes right under you and you'll feel super guilty if you don't get them anything.....yeah....next year, I am soo going to get extra unisex presents.

Oh yeah, I did my nails again err...last last week.

the right one looks better but I didn't took a picture of it:( And I've already cleaned by nails. LOL.

Oh, and it's something called "Gradient Nails". It's suppose to be darker at the tip of your nails and it should look like it's washing out to your natural nail colour at the end. Idk. Don't think I explained it properly. Just. Google. IT.

Kbai! Have a nice Christmas:D ~~Hope you don't choke while chowing down on your Christmas dinner or something.~~

Limbang and Miri

2010-12-13T02:38:00.005+08:00

So, I'm back from Limbang yesterday(mind you it's 2.40am now. A new day!) at maybe 1-2pm. All I did was text someone(sorry if I couldn't reply any of your texts. My credit got low again cause my mum kept using it in LimbangT_T) then flopped to bed. I was soo tired I didn't even eat lunch! I believe this is the first time this year I have ever really skipped lunch. Felt extremely hungry when I woke up at 5?

And when I got online, the stupidest thing happened. Well, I don't know when it happened. I just saw it yesterday afternoon. 98% of the people on my contact list was blocked! I tried signing out then back on again but it's still like that. Was I hacked? Or is this another one of MSN's bitchiness on meT_T I mean, it's really impossible for me to get hack. My password is like **************** that long! It would be longer if there weren't any limit to it. And it's pretty stupid too so I don't think anyone will know. I didn't tell anyone. Maybe the hackers used some sort of high-tech system thingy. IDK!T_T

And yes, I have to go through all the freakin' pain of unblocking every single one of my contacts. fml.

Oh, and Limbang was super boring but Miri was super fun!:D Well the shopping is. Didn't really go clubbing or anything. Okay wtf, since when did I start clubbing. I mean....drink and play pools? No dirty dances and stuff like that. *shivers*. The clubs in Limbang are pretty lame. No offence but it is. The town that sleeps at 5pm is lame itself(Not that I hate it. I just don't like it there. It's too quiet and it gives me this creepy feeling. Like I'm in a horror movie and I'll be the first one to die kind. Cause it's creepyT_T).

My mum is from Limbang so we(my family)'ve always take short trips there. And from when I was young, I've seen some pretty scary stuff. Okay, pretty scary looking people la. Not saying that they're born ugly/are ugly okay. It's like you got into a car accident and you have to amputate your right/left leg and one of your eye got stabbed by that joy stick-like thingy besides the steering wheel and your nose got crushed by the airbag. Yes, that scary! I've even seen someone with a hole for a nose once! And I know, you're probably gonna say 'wow, Limbang version of Voldemort'. Please don't. It's sad.

And now one of my far cousin got into a car accident recently and he has scars on the left side of his face. It's a disturbing sight cause of all the blood oozing out of his face. He used to be confident and talkative and now he doesn't even talk that much anymore cause he's ashamed of it. Well, that's what his mum said. It's soo sad! Next time, don't act smart and drive when you don't know how to! Reminder to everyone!

I just wanna clear my mind from 'pretty scary looking people' and losers who hacks your msn. So...

y'know that glasses Lady Gaga used in the end of the Paparazzi mv?

yes this one

I got mine!:D Well, not specifically like the one above. My lenses are clear, not black.

My chin is weird. It does that ^ when I smile widely. I don't even know if that's a muscle or some blood vessel. Or maybe it's another layer of skin...

My eyes are soo puffyT_T

Don't kill me. I just wanna live!

Oh, and I got this energy saving thing on my blog!:D Basically, if your mouse isn't moving in a minute or so, my page will automatically go black(to save energy.apparently, the colour black uses less energy cause it's dimmer than bright white light.) and to go back all you have to do is move your mouse! Go to Online Leaf to get it:D It's at the bottom right. First code. Save energy!

Asking someone if they're anorexic is exactly like asking them if they're retarded. Completely hurtful. Oh, and it's SUPER RUDE too.

What is this!

2010-12-07T06:59:00.003+08:00

FML. Both happened last night and I was super bored okay! Well, I'm off to Miri in a few minutes now. Kthxbai

I'm my own entertainment

2010-12-05T01:13:00.003+08:00

I'm really bored and I wanna do something fun but there's nothing to do and no place to go so all I have for entertainment are my laptop and the wi-fi. Thus........camwhoring with the webcam?

Btw, some of the pictures are from err...a few days ago I think.

Oldest picture I have in this post. Yes, I sleep with my sleeping bag on the bed. It's really silky okay!T_T Can't resist. UGH.

Was suppose to smile in this but idk why it turned out like that

You're weird._.

Newest picture

I rarely smile like this cause my teeth are...y'know...crooked...

mehhehhehhehhehheh

I hope none of you get this...but I hope this certain person does

wait wtf, does he even reads my blog???

kay now I feel like I did this for nothing...*insert forever alone meme* and hey, I like my nose here:D

ugh, my mouth:(

I should smile like this more...love my apples*pat cheeks*

Sorry if the pictures are all lousy. I got not time to do those colour edit thing. So it's dark.

Kids

2010-12-04T18:49:00.003+08:00

I super hate sites with contents about ghost now. I forgot which site I went on the other day, but there's this story about this person who was showering and suddenly his hair(short hair) felt really heavy and he looked back and saw this fuckshit scary faceT_T Then it says "when you're showering and your hair suddenly feels heavy, it means a ghost is SHOWERING WITH YOU"!. I haven't washed my hair since. That was like, two days agoT_T My hair is gonna be really oily:(

For those who don't know why that^ is happening, it's a part of this campaign against children violence(or an invasion of memories). Basically, you just have to change your profile picture to a cartoon from your childhood.

I wanted to change mine to a picture of Scooby-Doo/Hello Kitty/Rugrats/Spongebob/As Told by Ginger/Recess but they're all taken and I don't wanna have the same profile picture. So...I'm going for.......

Lizzie McGuire!

I know I know, it's not a cartoon show. But the cartoon version of Lizzie has to count, right?*wiggles eyebrow*

Trying to play Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings on the drums. Failing miserably.

just a little update

2010-12-01T22:46:00.004+08:00

Hello! I'm officially 15 now:D And I got nothing else to blog except for that. Hmm...let me think...

Watched hp7 and Tangled last Saturday. Hp7 was epic but it's seriously sad that it ended with me crying(a little!) over Dobby:( It didn't felt like 2h 30mins! When it ended, all I can think was "wtf? that's it?!". Can't wait for part2!!!!!!

Oh speaking of hp...

newest member; Quidditch Through The Ages:>

Oh yes, I did my nails too. I LOVE the colour:D It's in some very light sky blue colour. BL602 from TheFaceShop.

Tangled was awesome! Rapunzel's my new favorite Disney princess now:p Goodbye Sleeping Beauty:\

LOVE PASCAL!!!! He's just soo adorable! I wanna watch it again in 3D!D: Especially the part where the lanterns float over the sea. OMG. That would be beautiful*squeals*.

Urm, my baby is fixed?

love my theme soo much. it's soo err...flowery? but you can't see it that clearly

Whenever people compliment me, I go like:

hahahaha. Seriously, there's nothing to compliment about.

Hmm, I can play Your Love is My Drug by Ke$ha and Teenage Dream by Katy Perry on Otto now!:D But it's my own little lame version. But hey, I'm a beginer:D

Oh, I bought this thai horror movie called Sick Nurses from Miri last week. It was sick! And now I keep on dreaming about fetus being shoved into the girl's mouthT_T DISGUSTING. PURELY DISTURBING. Thai horror movies are the best!!!!!

Sorry for the um, lousy pictures. Was in a rush cause I'm hungry. Bye

finally found ya

2010-11-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

HP GLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!

I bought it from this online store but it'll arrive on December:( Totally gonna wear this when I'm doing my hp marathon before HP7 part2 comes out:D And maybe draw a lightning scar on my forehead too. HEHEHEHEHEHE.

And I can't believe people thought I wanted those nerds glassesD: HELLO. BIG DIFFERENCE!!!! This one is more cooler:3

i was tagged

2010-11-17T17:37:00.003+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.) I'm just gonna do this here. Tagged by Lydia btw. Oh, and um, I tag no one?

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Ribena

2. Last phone call: my ahma from KL

3. Last text message: WanLing

4. Last song you listened to: 4ever - The Veronicas

5. Last time you cried: honestly, I don't remember

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: yeah

7. Been cheated on: yeah. i know, sucks to be me

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yeah

9. Lost someone special: yeah

10. Been depressed: a lot

11. Been drunk and threw up: never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. pink

13. purple

14. sky blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yeap

16. Fallen out of love: nope

17. Laughed until you cried: yeah

18. Met someone who changed you: nope

19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you: maybe?

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: hell no

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: I don't add strangers so I know 97% of them

23. How many kids do you want to have: 3? but not now. teenage pregnancy is scary

24. Do you have any pets: a turtle named Crookshanks and two big, mean ugly fishes

25. Do you want to change your name: nope. nothing wrong with it

26. What did you do for your last birthday: all I remembered was cake...yummy cake...:D

27. What time did you wake up today: 10am+

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: probably talking to myself in my sleep. yes, I do that almost all the time

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: to watch HP7 part1 and part2!!!!!!!!:(

30. Last time you saw your Mother: a few minutes ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: something about myself?

32. What are you listening to right now: Sour cherry - The Kills

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: this annoying dude

35. Most visited webpage: Google8) 2nd is Youtube. 3rd is Facebook.....

36. Whats your real name: Ho Ying Ying

37. Nicknames: Ying? but I realized only people who are close to me calls me that...some of them call me by my full name:p

38. Relationship Status: in a relationship with KimYew:3

39. Zodiac sign: sagittarius

40. Male or female?: female

41. Elementary?: NLPS and SRMB

42. Middle School?: SMSH

43. High school/college?: probably still SMSH. College.....idk

44. Hair colour: black

45. Long or short: shoulder length(ok...longer than that)

46. Height : um, 160+??

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: no. but i'm*holds breath* in LOVE

48: What do you like about yourself?: almost everything but not completely everything

49. Piercings: nope

50. Tattoos: nope. but something from HP sounds cool:B

51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: none

53. First piercing: none

54. First best friend: Muizzah

55. First sport you joined: running team?

56. First vacation: KL?

57. First dance crew you like: um, do the dance crew from Step Up 3D counts?:D

58. First pair of trainers: Bubblegum:D they're very popular in my family:p

WANTING :

59. eating: curly fries

60. Drinking: Green tea

61. I'm about to: eat

62. Listening to: We R who we R - Ke$ha

63. Waiting for : dinner to be ready

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: if they're not evil, sure:D

65. Get Married?: YESH

66. Career?: um, someone successful

WHICH IS BETTER

67. Lips or eyes: eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: hugs! kisses are just...weird

69. Shorter or taller: taller

70. Older or Younger: younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: a little bit of both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach(Y)

73. Sensitive or loud: errrrrr.....loud. and a little bit sensitive?

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble makerXD

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: wtf no

77. Drank hard liquor: no

78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes. but found them in the end(A)

79. Sex on first date: dude. seriously? NO

80. Broken someone's heart: *looks down shamefully*

82. Been arrested: noooo~

83. Turned someone down: yeah

84. Cried when someone died: yeah

85. Fallen for a friend?: I guess he used to be a friend. so yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: sometimes

87. Miracles: yeah

88. Love at first sight: stupidest thing ever

89. Heaven: yeah

90. Santa Claus?: no:( dad IS Santa Claus:p

91. Kiss on the first date: nuuuuuuuuu

92. Angels: yeah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

95. Did you sing today?: I sing everyday:p but I'm not good...unleash my inner duck voice!!!!!!

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope

97. If you could go back in time what will you do?: ride the roller coaster in Jerudong Park?

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relieve it, what would it be?: hmm...I have no idea

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yeah

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: how about no?

I watched this video my dad took from his work place. They were slaughtering this cow. They tied its leg head up and then used this knife to slice through it's neck. And when they sliced it half way through, THE COW WAS STILL FREAKIN' MOVING! SHIT!!!!!!!! It was jumping up while blood was spraying out like a volcano!!!!! Then it got pulled down and it was like, struggling on the floorT_T But hey, it's korban. Dad doesn't urm, slaughter them btw, so yeah, the meat is halal for Muslims to eat. He's just the finance manager there and urm, he has this obsession for cows-.-

I really really really wanna watch HP7:( But I have to wait for somebodeh*sighs*

.

2010-11-16T02:01:00.002+08:00

trust what you feel in your heart and take a blind leap of faith

:D

2010-11-08T23:29:00.003+08:00

I may be the happiest person alive now. Feel the happiness!*sprinkles glitter all over*

I am soo bored. Can't sleep. I'm hungry(it's like im hungry all the time now o.O). Can't cook.

Oh, and whoever said that Milo fills your tummy is a pure nasty little liar. I was almost late for school this morning cause my alarm didn't work(no battery.LOL) so I had no time to eat a proper breakfast. Mum made me Milo on the go. And I felt hungry the whole morning in schoolT_T

ILYWKY:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Am I spoiled?

2010-11-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

This afternoon I asked my mum to get me a pair of pink drumstick if she sees them.

Then, she suddenly went...BAM

MUM: why? the one you have not enough meh?
ME: uh, it's a bit rosak already
MUM: i thought your dad say it's suppose to be like that?
ME: yah, but just in case
MUM: you know, you're soo spoiled. your dad spoiled you too much already. im not going to spoil you to.
ME: *HA! you do actually*
MUM: and how come you no study? you don't study i take away your drum. always play here play there. not serious ah?
ME: but if i don't play, papa take the drum away
MUM: aiya, study more important! see, your papa always spoil you ma.
ME: but i can study in school tomorrow. the test starts at 11
MUM: later you don't concentrate how? i know im not good in my studies but that's because kong kong died when i was young and i have no chance. you got chance. me and papa still alive. why you dont study? if you dont study, you dont go out this friday with teo them. dont you ever think papa spend all the money on you for what? you know he sayang you and ang the most so dont take advantage. study.
ME: that's why im playing the drums. cause he bought it soo suddenly
MUM: doesnt mean you have to play it now ma. go study. dont be soo stubborn

FML. If I don't play the drums, dad will think I'm not being serious and take away the drum. And if I do play the drums, mum will take it away cause she thinks I'm not being serious on my studies. Life is cruel-.-

And I admit, I am spoiled. Not in a bad way. I'm content with what I have now. I'm not spoiled like "daddy! I want a horse! *after getting a horse* oh daddy, i don't want the horse now. I want a tiger" wtf. At least I'm not that spoiled. I'm spoiled in a good way:D See, I even insist on using my old B.mobile phone after my n86 broke down again. I INSISTED. And I even ask for my phone to be repaired and not buy a new one! SEE! How am I spoiled in a bad way?(in case you can't tell, my mum told me i'm spoiled in a bad way). And hello, she like, spoils me too. She kept on asking what I want(not just me okay, my siblings also) to eat for breakfast/dinner(lunch is usually her choice). She also buys stuff for me even when I said I don't want anything at all!(and when I ask her to buy, she goes mad-.-) So is it really my fault? And I'm not that bad okay-.-

OMG, this is soo stressing yet...happy:D

pictures in the dark

2010-11-05T13:33:00.003+08:00

UPDATE: A Halloween post you've never seen before http://splattered-pinks.blogspot.com/2010/10/halloween.html

Last night, I didn't want to go to bed that early since it'll be a friday(today) tomorrow. Wanted to drum but I can't risk waking up my parents and them being in rage. There wasn't anything on tv(except Simpsons season21!! Halloween edition:D). I can't cook anything to eat(and I loathe eating oily food at 10pm+ and for breakfast. it's just too oily). My face is already washed. Teo went offline. Zim went offline. Desmond went offline. And a few others who I don't care about went offline. Nobody to bother. Don't know what to go to Uncle Google with. So the only thing I can do was....canwhore....in the dark:B(okay and maybe play dress up a bit).

with my bow necklace:D you can't see it much cause i was trying to make it look like a mustache. fail. and i look...weird here.

hat given by Janet

sparkly scarf:3

And a little photoshop magic my friend, photoshop magic.

also made this to kill time

and in the afternoon;

my freakin duck face:B you can go die now

OH! Have any of you heard Greyson Chance's new song?:D It's called waiting outside the lines.

listen to this everyday!

He's soo, AHHH!!! Personally, I think he's better than Justin Bieber. Not that I have anything against him. I just think Greyson Chance is better. But fml he's like, 12 or something:( I feel like a cougar. FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML.

Oyah,

MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!! just missing the ride cymbal:\

Gonna name you Otto:3 Cause I got you on the 15th of October, and you're an Olympic Premier. And you're round like an O. HAHAHAHAA. And there's someone name Otto(the drug addict bus driver who's also a music junkie?) in Simpsons and the Simpsons are cool! And there're two 'o's in cool:B

I want a pink pair of drumstick:( Ok, maybe 2 or 3 cause mine is all...cacat already:\

why?

2010-11-02T20:36:00.006+08:00

Is it me, or is Brunei getting a wee bit dangerous?

Recently, someone broke into my neighbor's house and stole the ladies underwear + the tv-.- Pervs. And that neighbor just lives freakin' behind my house!!!! Gonna buy tons of lock for my gate and get a guard dog(I wish!).

This morning, an indian man was found dead in a public school in Brunei. Won't give out the school's name because 1) I don't want to get in trouble or ruin their reputation. 2) I don't know if this is true but a few people confirmed it(keep in mind that they're adults. not those teens who love to spread rumors). 3) You might get a few info on Twitter or Facebook. So yeah, do some hard digging.

And this afternoon, some lady tried to ump off a building. But she lived. Lucky for her!!!! I don't know why she tried to, but I heard it's because of stress/teen pregnancy/her boyfriend dumped her. So this is still...*deep mysterious voice*unknown.

Spent about an hour trying to adjust my floor tom and my bass(and my seat. it was somehow too, high)just now . Was going to ask Shasha but then I can't tweet anything(until now also cannot!) so I've no choice but to go to Fikri. Surprisingly, he's good in explaining itD: I thought he might not care and blahhhh. But yeah. Awkward.

So far my bass still sounds cacat. Dad said I need masking tape for ito.O or a pillow. He added "that was how we do it when I was young"-.- I don't want masking tape all over my bass! I don't want it anywhere on my baby at all! I have this phobia that when I take the tape off, the skin would tear off and I will be forced to use the new skin and waste it in just...a few months?

Just a few days left until my exams are over!!!!!! FYB! Then it's off to Miri:D Won't be hanging out there this time cause my god granny is sick:\ Well, I think she's my god grandmother. She's dad's god mother, so yeah. We still call her ahma. Actually there's a long history to this. She's dad's ex-wife's mum. Yeah. Think I can get WanLing her gift there.

Life is a highway, choose the wrong path and you're lost.

Halloween

2010-10-31T22:06:00.001+08:00

I've always love dressing up! From young until now:D But I never have the guts to dress in dresses and skirts in public:p Conquering this 'fear' now:D

Anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!

I dressed up as this:(and then play alone._.)

A THREE-HEADED CROC!!:D

Dad bought the crocodile hat and the crocodile oven mitts from Australia:) The oven mitts reminds me a lot of the one from Mr. Bean in that episode where the had food problem:D

Feed me! I ish hungry:(

I know you didn't see this post before. Well, it was on draft cause I forgot to click 'PUBLISH POST':p And I've just recently found out.

things soo farrr

2010-10-28T19:03:00.004+08:00

If you read my tweets(sometimes emotional/funny/extremely lame), you would probably know this by now...

UPDATE:

there, finally got a picture(end of update:p)

YES. I have my very own drum set already:'D Dad bought it on the 15th of October. I know there's no picture of it because dad took my camera to Australia-.-

Anyway, I'm planning to learn the basics from my dad and one of his friend(I call him Uncle Zaini HAHAHAHA!) after my exams. Surprisingly, dad owned me. He kept on showing off his drumming skills-.- It's kinda really depressing for me to live up to him. He can play the drums, guitar, bass, piano and a wee bit of trumpetT_T But hey, I can do a drum roll on my first day so I think I'll be okay:D

Oh yeah!!!!! You can watch 3D movies now at The Mall Cineplex! Yes, the ones with the glasses and stuff!!!!! You don't have to wait for I don't know, 12123416years for the Seria one to open now!!! I'm soo happy!!!!! Oh, but you can't take the 3D glasses home cause it's not those paper type ones. OMG, I don't want to share the 3D glasses! Think of the oiliness left by the previous person who used it. EWW. The things I have to do for stuff I wanna have/do. I also have this urge to watch it with KY but he probably wouldn't want to cause he hates me for life*sigh* and life goes on and on and on.

My classmates think that Wilson is my bf-.- HAHAHAHAAAHAHA. Omg, I seriously can't stop laughing now:p We HANG. Just friends. It's weird cause I thought that my classmates only follow the news and stuff through facebook. And well, this wasn't on facebook. They actually have a life outside facebook:O(no offence).

Bm2 was shit just now. I had this fear that I wasn't going to finish on time but I did. And that's because I didn't chose the fahaman thing. I chose the memodenkan and puisi. Puisi was kinda easy actually:D I feel stupid for choosing the memodenkan cause I've asked a few people and none of them chose that. I think I may have failed Bm1 cause my teacher told us there're two failures in it. I hope it's not me. And I think I passed Amaths1:D Cause Madam Soh was like "there's only one failure. And it's one of the boys". Thank you Lord! I can sleep peacefully now:D

English1 was super boring. For once I didn't use my imagination for an english composition. For me, the topics given were boring cause you have to depend on facts and everybody knows that fiction stories are super awesome. For example, Harry Potter:D Lord of the Rings. Darren Shan. The Graveyard Book. Alice in Wonderland. And blablabla. So I was kinda disappointed on the paper. And I think I wrote a seriously weird composition cause I wrote about my dad and him being the dad version of superman. And I included 'and he has a mustache' and 'just thinking about it makes my tummy grumble' in it. My teacher is gonna laugh like hell.

I want a dream catcher soooo bad:(

CAS ACTIVITY DAY

2010-10-28T17:54:00.002+08:00

CAS(Care and Action for Strays) is having their very first activity day on 31st of October. In case you still have no clue what's CAS, it's an animal shelter here IN BRUNEI. They help stray animals all over Brunei. I think they have a lot of dogs there:3 There are also cats but I don't see much of them in their site.

They're having this activity day thing at Simpang 542 at Jalan Muara. You can adopt, sponsor them(in food or medical bills) or even volunteer!! I've always wanted to volunteer in an animal shelter but sadly I'm soo unlucky right now. Exams*sigh*

For more info, go to their facebook page or their blog.

Help the animals! I've heard a lot of stories about animal abuse lately:(

Spirit day

2010-10-20T20:59:00.004+08:00

20/10/2010

Like I said, people will judge you no matter what. Some go over the limit, some...just judge you from afar. But never give up hope, have faith, love is love, things will end up ok. Just ignore those unwanted bitches, hold your chin up and say 'fuck yeah'. Cause it's your life, not theirs. Being gay doesn't mean you're weak and stupid, for me, it means you're the bravest person in the world to admit it and smart enough to follow your heart.

As for the jerks...well, karma is a bigger bitch than you are:) What goes around, comes around, and goes around again. Stop bullying.

This makes me question some religion too. God loves everyone. So, he loves those who choose to be gay too, right? No one in their right mind will hate and damn their own creation. So, he has to, right? But the other thing is, being gay is a sin. Why is the world so confusing?*bangs head on keyboard*

Gonna snap my PURPLE glowing stick later:3

And just in case anyone ask, I'm straight kay. Gotta look out for people

Hot and dangerous

2010-10-19T20:49:00.003+08:00

My camera isn't with me so I can't take pictures to blog about. Got a few things to blog about before my EOY starts. This is gonna be hell. And playing Uno in school everyday doesn't help. Seriously, they have to stop bringing Uno cards to school! It's soo distracting. I NEED TO GET SERIOUS.

And this is super scary.

sick

WTF(sorry, but I realize a lot of WTF things have been happening around me lately). Can anyone tell me why my picture is labeled "cute chinese teens"?? Cause I certainly didn't do it! And why is it in some other asian language?! It's not possible for someone to steal this and it being linked back to my blog, can it?

Am gonna set my photobucket album private after this.

Ke$sha rocks!:D

and she's totally awesome! I know, this is like an irony or something. And if you watch AVPM, you'll know what this mean(A)

I can't get him out of my mind and everytime I see him I get this pain in my chest and I just know it's all his fault....that bitch.

wtf

2010-10-17T19:59:00.003+08:00

This is amazing!

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Got it from here. I can honestly tell you that 70% of it is true and the rest is unsure of and um, stupid. Most...well...I don't know. Every other horoscope thingy I've read before are all untrue.

And I know, I'm suppose to be on hiatus or something. But it just doesn't work. I've been on somewhere most of my time and. Well. I don't wanna be on hiatus. Yeah. kthxbai

HIATUS

2010-10-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

My EOY is just two more weeks away. Need to cram as much as possible into that brain of mine. UGH, this is what happens if you don't work hard enough for the earlier tests, you panic at the last one, worrying that your total average won't pull you up to a new level next year.

I seriously need to lock up my laptop somewhere and hand the key to my mum or someone. Tumblr isn't helping me at allD:

Will be back on the 9th of November(or the 7th)

Depression

2010-10-04T20:26:00.004+08:00

can anyone tell me what causes depression? o.O

cause I've googled 'signs of teen depression' and I feel like I'm sick or something. Out of 12 signs, I have 6 of them. WTF is wrong with me. And now I can't even blog or twiter(ugh, not even facebook) about it cause people might fucking see and start to be kaypoh and pity me or something.wtf. I want real friends and not the ones who hangs out with you cause you're depressed. That's mega sad. I don't even have the guts to tell anyone cause they might think i'm overreacting or something to get fame? I've been suspecting i've depression since, well, ever since I've been ignoring almost everyone and not care bout things. And putting all this in white font makes me feel like im talking to myself or something. man, i should have kept a diary or something.

these are my symptoms(the ones marked 'X');

[X]sadness or hopelessness

[]irritability, anger or hostility

[]tearfulness or frequent crying

[X]withdrawal from friends and family

[X]loss of interest in activities

[]changes in eating and sleeping habits

[X]restlessness and agitation

[X]feelings of worthlessness and guilt

[X]lack of enthusiasm and motivation

[]fatigue or lack of energy

[]difficulty in concentrating

[]thoughts of death or suicide

i want to talk to someone. not just anyone. but someone with depression as well? well i haven't even confirm that i have depression but hey, signs are signs. and all i can do now is force myself to be happy and try to get over this. i don't know how, but i'll try. for me, myself and i.

I need it for school

A special type of bond

2010-10-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

I've never once like any of my classmates(maybe just a few). Some of them are annoying, stupid(not physically, they just ask stupid and so obvious question eg: *I'm writing the word chemistry on a sheet of paper* classmate:*looks at paper*'what subject is that?' FUCKULAH!! Just wrote down the topic still want to ask and at cute meh?), they laugh at almost anything(like, someone made this very lame joke that's not funny at all and they still laugh), they're total hypocrites, they're mindless zombies and they think they're the coolest group of people in school-.- Thank goodness that only some of them are like this.

But something happened a few days ago that made me realize that maybe they're not all that bad after all.

1) They're mad awesome uno/speed/heart-attack.

Playing these card games with them are always fun:D You get hyped up for no reason at all. Especially in heart-attack. Oh that rush of hyperness in your blood feels good!

And they'll help you win in uno too(if they've already finish and 'uno game' already).

And they're completely mindless in speed(some only) which makes me feel soo good whenever i beat them*evil laugh*. JK:p It's just fun to watch their cute reaction whenever they have this mini heart-attack in speed/heart-attack:D Especially WanLingXD

2) They're good sport

Well, sometimes and only some of them

3) They help you out with stuff

Unfinish homeworks: They'll let you copy theirs

Can't find teacher's staffroom/table: They'll tell you where or sometimes help you pass your paper up for you

Don't know where our pe class is(cause it tends to switch from the hall to the surau field): they'll go to our pe teacher and ask

4) They celebrate almost everyone's birthday!

It depends weather they know when's your birthday or not. If they don't know, no cake. Too bad they can't celebrate mine cause it's at the end of November and we won't be in school that time:(

Yeah, they might be a complete pain in the ass sometimes but they can be cool too:) How did I found out?

Well, we were playing uno/speed/heart-attack a few days ago and well, tadaaaaa!

Sorry if this post is messy and stuff cause I'm in a rush

I won't just stand there

2010-10-01T22:56:00.002+08:00

That is cool. I like this cover more:D

Why is it that everytime some famous person makes this awesome song that i like, someone else has to make a cover that's even more awesome-.- Made me life worth living:DDDDD

Mum just came back from KL:D

Got TSGS book 20!!! FINALLY!

Everybody take it off!

2010-09-30T20:45:00.003+08:00

HOLYSHIT. THIS;

MADE MY WEEK:DDDD Just watch it. You'll feel happy and not die in sadness. wtf.

Yes, anon readers are scary. No offence.

Imma take your advice and hide my kids, my wife and my husband cause they're rapin' everybody out there. wtf

Why I love my hometown

2010-09-26T21:24:00.004+08:00

Please note that my hometown is Miri.

1) They have a lot of malls

A lot I tell you. A few weeks ago(somewhere in the holidays) my family and I went to Miri. On our last day, we decided to go check out the new Merdeka Mall for a while. This is just one of the many malls you'll see in Miri.

The mall is pretty!(picture does not belong to me. Obviously)

There's no basement parking btw. Then what they do? They made this rooftop parking!!!! And otw to the rooftop, there's this seriously curvy and narrow road with no roof that you can use via car to get there. The no roof part is scary but I guess you don't really need it cause it's not underground. But it pretty!:D

the rooftop. it reminds me a lot of this place in GTA:p

coolest parking lot I've ever been to:D

We went inside. Nothing was at the top floor btw. So we went down to the shopping mall.

Sadly, we have to use the stairsT_T

LOLJK, we used the lift:p

So artsy!(that's my dad looking like a tourist. strange cause Miri is also his hometown)

There wern't a lot of stores there yet cause it's newly open. The SugarBun restaurant there was coolT_T They even have their own desert counter! What happened to the SugarBun in Brunei?:(

Walked around and saw this cafe;

it's like the Cafe World thing from Facebook:O

But the inside is not the same lah. It's really small. But mysterious looking too cause the inside is painted black.

2) They sell more variety of books.

I always find it hard to buy books in Brunei. Cause some of the ones I want, they don't sell(or maybe I didn't look hard enough).

My most favourite bookshop in Miri would have to be Belle's bookshop(wonder if Belle from Beauty and the Beast owns it:D). I will surely find the book I want there everytime and also find new books that interest me:3 And it's huge!!!!(and Toys World is below it:D)

I do not own this picture

I would probably consider working there if no one wants to hire me when I grow up. Cause the employees are allowed to read the books!! FOR FREE!!!! I was so surprise when I saw one employee reading one of those Little Black Dress book. I thought she's gonna get sack or something. Then after walking around, I noticed that all the employees are reading! Even the cashier!!!! Like wtf, the boss so good.

bought these:D

this

so cool:O

and this!:D

Wanted to buy The Graveyard Book but dad wasn't anywhere in sight and I don't have enough money:(

I want this:(

OH!!! And I saw STGS book 20!!! I didn't buy it cause I thought my sister did cause she was looking at those STGSbook also. Turned out she got the 17th book instead.

3) Almost everyone there has a supermegafoxyawesomehot nightlife!

If you go out at 1am-3am+, you can still see people walking around the streets to bars, seafood restaurant, 24hour stores and the sort.

My cousins brought me somewhere the other day.

We went here

it's next to this place

They actually wanted to bing me to somewhere called The Balcony. But we stuck to this place cause it's closer to my hotel and also closer to this good seafood restaurant.

I didn't actually drink that much(I had to share with this overprotective cousin of mine*glares*).

my first time drinking this:D

I've only tried the bluberry vodka once(not the whole bottle) before(like, early this year?). That was the only vodka I've ever drank.

WanLing LOVES this flavour. She said it's quite nice so I thought I'll have a try. Not as nice as the bluberry one*cough*

The main reason why they went here is because of pool. Yeah, they played for half an hour?-.- I had nothing to do so i used the internet connection there:3

4) They sell nice clothes and shoes!!!!

FML. I wanna live there.

5) They sell awesome stuff!

Walked around Bullivard(sp?) and found this;

Scooby! Can you spot Mike Wazowski there too?:D

I wanted to buy Scooby so bad but my mum told me not to cause it's dirty. Think about millions of other people cuddling that thing and not buying itT_T And it was laying on the floor when I found it:S

also saw this Smurf guy!:D can you spot Tom and Jerry's body? Scooby? Mike?:D

6) Paikias(gangsters) can be your boyfriend

Recently this cousin of mine got a new boyfriend. And he's like a gangster or something! So kewl:3 We went to this club thing and everyone knows him-.-

7) Awesome food!

Food is also something you'll see a lot in Miri.

It's only awesome if you know where to look. And don't go to Miri during Hari Raya because everything will be expensive then. Something that normally cost $3 will be about $10 during that time. TRUE STORY.

Okay, let me tell you where to find the most yummiest roast chicken in the world!(maybe only Miri). You can find it in the market place(I think they call this Tamu Lama?). Um, I don't know the name lah. But the market is like, yellowish and they have stalls and cafes there too. Just go find it at the stall section. If you're Muslim, don't go cause i think it's not halal.

the market! (i do not own this picture too btw)

8) The salons there are better

No offence to the Bruneians ah. But seriously, I know some people who cut their hair only in Miri because "they cut better".

There are tons of salons in Miri. The hairstylist there are nicer and younger. Which means they know more about our generation's hairstyles(and blablabla). I went there last year wanting to cut like, damn short! Then my hairstylist(her name's Ann. The salon told me to stick with her cause she's the one who cut my hair and knows more about my hairstyle since she cut it. DUH) told me it'll make my neck look longer cause I'm skinny-.- Then she showed me by clipping my hair up and tucking it under my hair. It looks my hair have been chopped off for real! Then she recomenned some layered hairstyle. I loved it:D It's not those normal layered hair thing. It's like um, there're mainly two layers. One is longer and the other is shorter. If you tie up the longer part of your hair(which is at the back), it looks like you have short hair(not those messy ones but like those perfectly cut ones). She said that way I can have both long and short hair. Smart.

9) Awesome parks

A lot of fun parks there too!:D There's one park at Tanjong Lobang(or some other park. I forgot the name) area there with this cafe beside it. One of the cafe sells the most yummiest fried chicken(the one I mention before was ROAST chicken. Got difference one okay) everT_T i don't know the name but they have a lot of cats at their side of the cafe. And I THINK it's halal because I ever see this other Muslim family ordering their food.

Then there's this park with this bigass bridge!!!!!!! i forgot where it is cause I went there a long long long time ago:( And below the bigass bridge, there's this play area with a lot of playgrounds. I heard there's a swimming pool there now:O

10) You can drive legally when you're 17.

I know. WTFFFFT_T

Took me 2days to finish this post cause photobucket was being an ass.

2+ in the morning

2010-09-24T02:30:00.005+08:00

Hello:3

It's currently 2am+ and somehow I still have the energy to camwhore with my webcam and blog. Semangat ehhh~

Neeways, I'm bored.

Mum is going to KL later in the morning at around...9.30? So damn early! I wanna go but she wouldn't allow itT_T But she did promise to buy me stuff:3 Iloveyoumii(yes, I call my mum 'mi' instead of 'mummy')

When I asked her what's my limit and she was like

MUM: never mind la. anything you want i'll try to find for you. if i can't, i buy those pretty shirts for you.

And then I was like;

except, with bigger+happy eyes (hollycrap. my neck scares meT_T it looks like one of the blood vessel is gonna pop out* shivers*)

Only a few of my recently camwhore pictures cause I'm busy with tumblr. Okay, that sounds wrong

It's already half past two, I'm not drunk at all and I need you now:(

Mooncake Festival

2010-09-22T18:48:00.003+08:00

As you all know, we have a full moon today:D

I haven't actually checked the moon, but nyeh, mid-autumn mooncake festival=full moon. Much easier.

My two favourite things about the mid-autumn mooncake festival would be the mooncakes and the lanterns!!!(and no, those aren't the only two things about mooncake festival)

omg, they look yummy!

I really love those mooncakes with green fillings. I think they're pandans.

Now I'm just gonna fill this post with pretty lanterns. HEHEHEE.

I want this in my room:\

I wannaa go someplace like this one day:D

Don't think this is a lantern but it's very pretty!

pretty!

don't think they're lanterns either

pretty:3

jack-o-lantern!!!XD

I wanna do this! I think it's something like um, you write your wish in those bigass lanterns and release it into the sky. then your wish will come true(i don't know if it's true or not. maybe i got it mixed up with some other lantern thingy). I wanna go to China/Taiwan for this!

think about seeing all those lantern lighting up the dark sky.very pretty. if you do this in Brunei, for sure some kid is gonna shoot it down with his/her phone(or any other technology he/she has).

and i wanna do this too:(

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!

And we forgot one more lantern.

the green lantern!(I know, so lame)

For more information, go Google:D